What is Safety even?
this one is about a sinking feeling
When was the last time you felt that sinking feeling about a person, a situation, or a place?
That moment where it feels like you’re standing on the edge of a mental ledge, trying to convince yourself you’re fine while your intuition quietly says, “Girl… no you’re not.”
Lately, I’ve been living on that ledge. And honestly, it feels like the cost of abandoning myself, one small compromise at a time.
The scary part is that I didn’t catch the red flags. The slow drifting away from people I love. The craving for silence, like it’s the only safe place. The basic self-care slipping through the cracks. When half your errands are outsourced, it takes longer to notice the dishes staging a rebellion, the laundry forming its own civilization, and the loved ones wondering where you went.
Sometimes the ledge is the feeling of words stuck in your throat, begging to be released. Sometimes it’s sleeping to avoid life. Sometimes it’s piling on work until the exhaustion is loud enough to drown out your thoughts.
Or is that just me?
That GIF is the visual representation of my mind lately and today, I considered what it would mean for her to stop. Well my intrusive thoughts said to max out the speed of my car, crash it and refuse treatment for my injuries, but that’s the funny thing about our bodies. It will heal if given time and space, so I tried that. I drove straight home, worked while the TV gave me background noise to drown mine. Well, I had a nap and started thinking clearly. Now I need to make one or two apologies for acting like a zombie all morning and hope my victim seeks to understand me.
Today we’re going to rant about the enshitification of tech, because I know I’m not the only one who spends more time digging through an inbox than actually reading the email that just came in. And don’t even get me started on the painfully dull search function in Google Drive. Somebody please tell me I’m not tripping. As tech gets shittier, the professional talent pool is taking a nosedive right alongside it. People are losing the reading sauce fast. This is a self-drag as much as it is a commentary on the current state of the future of work.
My former supervisors definitely shaped this part of me. In the legal field, missing the fine print was a cardinal sin. I hated their approach to correcting mistakes, but the tough lessons trained me well. Now I can extract the key points from most documents at lightning speed, and that skill makes it easier to learn, read, stay still, and do focus-heavy work for longer stretches. I know I sound like a model employee, but that was not always the case.
I wish I knew how to revive that level of discipline and attention to detail on a wider scale, because we need those skills now more than ever.
In light of the recent X blowouts starring a few beloved-but-suddenly-not-so-beloved public figures, I trust the privacy-conscious among us have taken this as a loud reminder to run a digital footprint audit. There are plenty of tools for it, or you can outsource the job to a cybersecurity professional. Pro tip: make sure whoever you hire is sealed under a watertight non-disclosure agreement. Think “vault” instead of “Velcro.”
Someone said to me, “Imagine being a public figure and leaving that kind of combustible content out in the open. How can anyone be that careless?” I simply replied;
There is a level of power and influence a person can reach that creates the illusion of invincibility. Individuals who say or do what this person said or allegedly did often move through the world without the accountability that applies to everyone else.
And that, my people, is the grand plot twist of life. It is rarely fair, villains don’t usually realise they’re becoming villains, and the world eventually shrugs and keeps spinning. The whole debacle is unfortunate for everyone caught in the crossfire, but I hope we’re all walking away with a few lessons tucked under our belts.
Things I Enjoyed…
Applying TikTok conflict resolution knowledge to my life. You scroll endlessly on the app picking up some really valuable life advice and boom one day you need it in real life. Cool stuff
Discovering Yettyslay on TikTok: no further explanation needed
Stocking up my reading list for 2026
Taking the much needed break to drive my career forward.
Learning the art of loving afresh: If you haven’t heard the new Olivia Dean album, I’m judging
That’s all for now folks, stay jiggy or whatever you get up to in your free time.